do we weep for the Lord?

Have you ever wondered why we shy away from direct verbiage? The words that dig deep; the ones with a harsh connotation and leave us somewhat uncomfortable inside. We beat around the bush. We tiptoe the conversation in order to make ourselves or someone else feel at ease. We don’t even realize we do it, yet it is a constant piece of work in our minds every single day. It’s an instant thought that suggests we might offend someone, or they might not understand our passion, so therefore, we change the wording.

As a writer, this irks me. My heart aches for the beautiful language we were meant to speak, but so often cover. This gift of communication is undefinable, it’s hard to grasp its root, its birth- yet we easily take it for granted by allowing our minds to suppress its’ power.

Often, as I am reading the bible I am reminded of this vigorous expression. There are words and sentences that cut deep, make me stagger, cry, and outpour my heart. I am undoubtedly always overwhelmed with conviction or overcome by grace. No matter what, how much I read, how little; or what book or verse, I will be consumed with its’ words- one way or another. They hit me, yet I am guilty of keeping them to myself.

Job 16:16-17 My face is red with weeping, and on my eyelids is deep darkness, although there is no violence in my hands, and my prayer is pure.

I think the root of our insecurities to sentences like these, are due to our unmet acceptance in the evil we encounter.

Let me explain. I could run to the book of Job for so many beautiful and heart wrenching truths, and this is one of them. Job was feeling, at this moment, solitary and unloved. He wanted vindication and wasn’t receiving it. He was being torn and pushed and tormented through multiple avenues of his life. But what he never failed to do, was turn to the only thing he had worthy in his life, God. Every single time we watch Job remind himself that his faith is true {pure} and God is enough. But that doesn’t mean he doesn’t feel the pain. It doesn’t mean he doesn’t question and cry out.

And that is what’s so beautiful about this small piece of scripture- the verbiage we run away from in every day life is “weep.” A strong, deafening term that has been redefined as weak in our culture. Think about the last time you heard that term in a normal conversation over coffee? What about at the office? But are we not prone and bestowed to experience this kind of deep emotion? Shouldn’t we embrace it?

This concept convicted me when I thought of what it means to weep for the Lord. There is a distinct difference between simply crying out, and weeping. The first can exemplify both overjoy and humbled certitude; while the other embodies an agony of some sort. A deeply rooted angst against our sin, against evil, against persecution, against the lost; a complete devastation to the truth of our broken self in a broken world. And this staggering emotion then leads to nothing less than weeping for the love and grace of our Father in heaven.

It is a powerful and defining truth when we realize how emotional our faith is. When we sit back and remind ourselves of its’ beginning, middle and end, it is inconceivable to think anything other than spiritual torment towards the fact that we are sinners.

But with that comes a joy. An immeasurable delight in the savior that bore all of that evil, all of that sin, all of that torment on a cross. He willingly took it all, that we may beIMG_1652 free from its’ grip. So, then our weeping of agony, molds into weeping of gratitude. An unending ravishment of His divine love and forgiveness over us. This is a beautiful act of indebtedness that our Lord without question deserves. So, why not express it? Why not talk about it?

This term is one of countless within scripture that we can learn from and adapt, declare and manifest in our daily life. Let us weep before the Lord, for His willing sacrifice, for our complete need of Him, for His undying love for us. Let it be more than an outward expression of tears, but rather an emotional wrecking, that brings light to the depths of His work in us and for us. It is through that kind of devotion that gives glory and thanksgiving to Him. So, let it not remain in our mouths as words unspoken, but rather asserted, vividly as our stance of faith in Him.

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