Suffering is a harsh and brutal word; and it’s a part of our world in more ways than one. It has many faces- the agonizing, or the one that makes your body quiver with pain and mind spin in an endless maze, unsure of how to go on; the subtle, or the quiet one that thrives in hidden corners, slowly unraveling your heart; the sudden, or that moment of utter disbelief, where it takes quite an effort to figure out reality, and where your breath went.
How do you handle those seconds, and how do you explain them to someone else-
One of the hardest questions to answer about God’s character, is the copious amount of pain flourishing in this life. Most would say, there is no magic answer; that there is no “key” to living that makes it all go away. I will be one that disagrees.
As I have said in previous posts, I tend to dive into the deep-end when it comes to God’s truth. I crave and prosper off the un-explainable power and beauty that He has to offer us- and this topic is one of them. In moments of pain, I search for words of wisdom. Whether it be my own hurt or that of others- I search for those words that bring it all together. I have realized that it is not necessarily words that will heal us, but a “trusting submission” (Job 28:23).
The book of Job is filled with heavy, challenging verses and its’ main truth is that a true, deep trust in God means taking a seat to His divine wisdom. This book calls you to accept the sanctity of our Lord, knowing that we are not always allowed to know and understand His plans or His knowledge.
Take a deep breath from that one, and hold it for the next.
In those times of adversity, as I even said, we search for wisdom. It is our human instinct to completely understand the situation in front of us. But it is not our job to do so. As believers, we are called to trust in Him with all our heart, might and soul, no matter the circumstances. If that is true, and we accept that, then we accept that His wisdom cannot be valued or found in this world.
Some struggle with this reality, because on one hand, it seems like God isn’t open with us, or truthful to us. But in my mind, it is the opposite. I look at this truth and see a Father who loves us so deeply, he has a plan; and that plan is founded on a head of knowledge that I could never comprehend, but He uses it for us and through us. He desires for us to be a part of Him with so much love, that we are given the opportunity to choose it, to choose Him and His way.
Job 28:23-28 says, with beautiful imagery about wisdom:
“God understands the way to it, and he knows its place. For he looks to the ends of the earth and sees everything under the heavens. When he gave to the wind its weight and apportioned the waters by measure, when he made a decree for the rain and a way for the lighting of the thunder, then he saw it and declared it; he established it, and searched it out. And he said to man, Behold, the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom, and to turn away from evil is understanding.”
That’s the magic answer to our suffering. Our wisdom is only as strong as our trust in the Lord, because ultimately only He has foresight to this life and what happens in it. We must take refuge in His knowledge, rather than our own. We must submit our thoughts and wonder to His divinity, and choose to live our life for Him and through Him.
It is not our job to understand the complications of our life on this earth, it is not our job to save, it is not within our power to demolish pain. Instead, our job is to teach others the truth of God’s grace and love, to show others the way to salvation, and to provide the truth out of their suffering.
Our God loves us so much, we are already taken care of. Though there will be adversity and frustration, we can lay those emotions down at God’s feet and trust that He’s got us, and trust that His wisdom behind whatever is happening, is ultimately for His glory.
There will be those that struggle with this truth, and that is ok. I certainly did. But after praying through it, God has revealed to me the undoubted beauty that comes from true faith in who He is.
We don’t have to have all of the answers, because we have a father that created the test.